Wednesday, 19 July 2017

I Burned Out

Dublin, Ireland

If you've been wondering where I've been the last few days, the answer is pretty short. I burned out. It all started with one busy week of seeing friends and going out with work and my nephew etc. and then I was blindsided by an overwhelming funk, that's really the only way I can explain it.

I burned out and I burned out hard. Creatively I had so many ideas of posts going on in my head but no desire to put them to paper only misery as I watched the light of inspiration I had for them die out and soon the idea would be silly with no foundation and no point in writing it cause nobody would want to read it. Which is crazy cause I know you guys are out there and regularly stop by to read my rambles.

Couple that with feeling lethargic about life in general, "swept away by responsibilities, expectations and pressures" as Anne from Fraulein Doktor put it in one of her latest posts. I'd recommend checking it out here. It helped me put into words what I was feeling as her post generally do. 

In her post she talks about being kinder to herself and that got me thinking about how much I have also enjoyed the past few weeks, even  though I felt like I was failing my blogging game and at times life in general, I was really enjoying the time I spent hanging out with my friends, seeing my nephew, barely catching enough sleep before meet-ups and just enjoying how carefree my life actually is.

It has been an almost out of body experience as the logical rational side of me tries to reiterate the importance of taking care of myself. That I will be okay. That I am okay. Whilst the emotional side of me faces a conflicting whirlwind of self-doubt, self-judgement but also a resilience to push through this burnout.

It is all quite exhausting and I am aware of how conflicted I sound and that's all the more draining and contributing to this burnout

In my 5 Simple Ways to Love Yourself post, in which I shared ways I show myself kindness and love, I talked about how much I valued my time here on this fabulous earth of ours, how I spend it and the people I spend it with.

I've found myself harking back to it the last few days, working that little bit harder on putting myself forward and taking care of me, spending time with people that make me feel good and just enjoying how great and worry free my life is at the moment.

I'm still dying to hit the ground running and dominate my various creative projects but I know that if I don't take this time to give myself some TLC now, I'm going to burn out a lot quicker and recovery will be ever out of reach.

So rambling over, back into my cave I crawl, I'm still here, don't worry about me. I'm just taking some extra TLC time to make sure I return my best. I will still be posting on my regular blog schedule that is Sunday mornings and Wednesday evenings and I hope to be back more actively on social media too.

 Also this week's newsletter will be out as usual on Friday ( unlike the last two weeks and I apologize for that, I am only one human )  so don't forget to sign up for it here!

Light a candle for me or send me a prayer. Recovery is in progress.

Till next time 

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5 comments so far

  1. I've been facing the same struggle these past two weeks. Hope you can find your way out of the funk soon!! X

    1. I hope you do too Quinn, it's not the greatest feeling in the world for anyone!!! xx

  2. I wish that were the burn out I was feeling, haha! Work is burning me out so bad. But, you sound like you're dealing well and have the right attitude :) You definitely deserve some 'you time'. You're always posting right on time, and everyone needs a vacation sometimes! Enjoy your summer, Ama!

    Erin | Explore, Refresh

    1. Work burnout is the absolute worst! Its not just mentally draining but physically too. I hope you're also taking care of yourself whenever and however you can xx And thank you so much, I'll do my best to make the most of my 'me time' and enjoy my summer <3 <3

  3. I hope you're feeling better Ama! You have such drive and passion for what you do and you're so talented at photography and film, I really admire you for it. But sometimes we all need a break and that's ok, even just a Netflix evening to recharge the batteries is good! Edel X


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