Sunday, July 03, 2016

Wake Up Calls









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Do you ever see someone doing better than you and realize you need to up your game? I have this inherent fear of neutrality. I do not know the source of it or when it started but it is there. For so long I wanted to live a normal life yet now I want anything but normality.

I crave the unexpected twists and turns of life, never knowing where you may end up. However that doesn't mean I do not worry about the unknown abyss of darkness a.k.a the future, that lies ahead, because God knows I do, but I don't worry as much as I use to. Every now and again, I slip into a routine, a state of comfort and contentment and without even knowing it, I stop doing the things that push me out of my comfort zone and towards the better me.

Today I woke up to a tweet from someone I don't know but I went to school with and I'm following. It was about their latest blog post. Not having any prior knowledge that this person was a fellow blogger, I was immediately intrigued and did not hesitate to click on the link. And I'm glad I did because I really enjoyed that post, and the one I read after that, and the two, three after that too. I was also impressed by their audience connection given the short space of time they have been in the blogosphere. I, and especially the beginner blogger in me felt excited and delighted for them and the success of their blog. From what I was reading they seemed to enjoy writing and their work was nothing short of enjoyable and refreshing.

However it also scared me. Why? Coming back from months of not blogging, I felt like I was beginning to get a hold of myself and the blogging thang again. But seeing these blog posts and the life in them, I felt as though I had somewhere along the way lost my own mojo. I can still remember the excitement and big ideas I had planned for the blog and general life when I first started. Plans and ideas that have been left to fade to incoherent ink marks in dusted old notebooks. In all fairness, some of these plans were probably out wishful thinking at the time, like wanting to move to a different country or travel the world on my non-existent budget but others like wanting to experience my surroundings and even starting a section to do with natural African hair, really did excite me, and I felt I could do it. I know I still can.

 I became comfortable in the fact that I had finished school and thus had no more worries. Which don't get me wrong, I am over the moon about but what I looked forward to most to do with this time was to experience... just... life. To go out and just do...something, anything instead of being cooped up in the house all day. I guess you could say I'm a collector of experiences. I would much rather walk under all the different types of weather the Irish climate can throw at me in the pace of a day ( which is many) than lay in my bed regardless of how comfy and most definitely warmer than the weather outside it is.

I guess coming across this post was kind of my wake up call to get out of myself and resume life, you know, get a new job, see my friends, prepare for college (which I'm super excited about assuming I hopefully get into college!) and experience more in life without restraints. It might sound silly, I know, but I'm really glad for it. And seeing as I am talking about experiencing all that is life, I guess you could say it's about time to reveal the BIG surprise I hinted at in my last post!

*insert Little Einsteins theme song* That's right, I'm going on a trip to....Ghana!! I'm going back home and I am beyond excited! It's been four years since I've seen my grandparents, great-grandmother, cousins etc. I've spent the last week getting visas for Ghana and Istanbul where I'll have a 22 hour layover, amonsgt other things ( I promise I have some semblance of a life). It's all together been a pretty busy week so far but now there's only 10 days to go till the adventure begins. Here's to experiencing life guys.

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I hope you enjoyed reading this post as much as I loved writing it. Is there anything you've done recently or will be doing that, like me, have you beyond excited? I'd love if you could share in the comments below. 


Till next time my pretties xxx

2 comments:

  1. I totally feel you. Thanks for putting into such good words :-)

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    xoxo

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    1. Thanks Mary! So glad to see that my words aren't completely incoherent and that someone understands my angle! xxx

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