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Sunday, 26 January 2020

Onwards Ever Onwards

Dublin, Ireland

Been cruising through life from an early age.

2019 was a strange one. There's been so much change and now we're at the end I feel equal parts appreciation and exhaustion. Last year I pushed myself out of my comfort zone in a way that resembles the slow burn of holding a stretch without brute force. Each push to explore has ignited or fueled a desire or habit I am now more grateful for.

An unexpected influence on how the year has shaped out is the teachings I've come across in college, more specifically notions of representation and media cultivation. The likes of Stuart Hall's Theory of Representation and Herman & Chomsky's Propaganda Model deeply affected my perception of the world. At times pondering these topics, I felt out of sync with the rythm of my immediate society. Now I use it to realign my priorities and fight off doubts or desires not rooted in my own principles. 

The topic of family is one I hold deep emotional wounds and issues around and exploring the concept of family has lessened some of those hurts. Similarly with friendship and perhaps most strikingly for this year, loneliness, as in spending time alone. This is my first year being single in my adulthood and at least in the last 6ish years. It's been a huge change. I've become more aware of how I spend my time, the people and activities I choose to spend it on and generally feel like I am getting to know myself more as a friend than I've ever done. 

Along with the self-exploration, I undertook a few activities that will be highlights for the rest of my life. 

Things I Did This Year

I Went Skydiving



When I was in 4th Year (age 16) I came up with 'Things to Do Before I Die' list which I seemed to lose immediately after penning. Regardless, skydiving was one of those things I put on the list. I didn't actually think I would do it but it was the scariest thing I could think of at the time of writing. 

Doing it however.... was waaayy scarier. There was three seconds of pure terror where my body tried to register the feeling of falling out of a plane 10,000ft, analysing everything that could possibly go wrong. After accepting that were the parachute and backup parachute to fail it would be a great way to go, I was able to enjoy the rest of the free fall and descent. 

Skydiving in Kilkenny Ireland is definitely not on par with skydiving in the likes of Portugal where the scenery is likely to be more beautiful but looking down at the green lush pastures and glimmering quarry still felt as exciting as ever.

I Went to Australia

Trying to get everyone into this picture proved too difficult. But here's a few of those present. 

I have two uncles, an aunt and 10 cousins  living in Australia. Until this year I had never met any of my cousins and hadn't seen my uncles and aunt in more than 17 years. 

Like I said above, family is a strange topic for me so this trip was kind of a big deal. I feel most people find their roots and identities through their families. Growing up in Ghana I spent about 25% of my day in my own home and the rest between the homes of my cousins and friends. Then I came to Ireland and having such widely dispersed family I didn't have the ability to go by my aunt's house after school or meet up with cousins even if it was just at Christmas or for 21st birthday parties like most of my peers. And if I didn't want to have that it probably would've been easier. 

So needless to say, I was really looking forward to this trip. There were strong elements of this trip that made it so spectacular. 

First, my cousin was getting married so naturally there would be a gathering of family for extended periods of time. My grandmother who lives in Ghana was going to be there, my aunt from Canada and an Uncle from England. It was set to the hottest wedding party of the year and boy it was. We arrived of the Thursday, the wedding was on the Sunday and each day in between to the day after the wedding, I was surrounded by family and everyone was in a good mood. I was in Heaven.


The wedding itself was.... indescribable. To use the word in its correct manner. I also got to meet my cousins through marriage and now have a new travel buddy who lives just across the pond in England. 



Throughout our stay, all the cousins really spent time together talking and trying to suss out where our interest, personalities, and opinions etc. lie and align. I personally think I've some pretty dope cousins. It just seems like my family are just great? I mean, maybe it's just me and the joy of being around them was getting to my head. 

This trip was so refreshing to my soul and I felt like there was a part of my identity awakened and reflected by being around all the family. I'll be visiting next year and look forward to forging stronger bonds with them now that we've made first contact.

Pancakes and smiles all round

Redbull Cliff Diving Final

 The legend that is Rhiannon Iffland and the equally awesome Gary Hunt.

Before flying off down under, I had the wonderful opportunity to go watch the Redbull Cliff Diving Final 2019 Series Final in Bilbao, Spain. I caught the competition while they were in Dublin watching across the Dun Laoighre harbour. However, when your travel companions know the athletes, the adventure is elevated 1000%. Not only did I get to meet and share dinner with the athletes I'd been watching and fangirling over for months, but Redbull also throws a wicked closing party which I got to attend.  All I can say is, I am definitely looking forward to celebrating another season with the fabulous athletes. 

Photo Diary



I've been doing a photo diary which I wrote about back in June so you can check that out here. Now that the year is out, I'm so happy with the results that I've decided to continue it into the new year. 

Motorcycle Lessons


This year I did my motorcycle lessons (I technically have like three hours left). Again, like the skydiving, it was something I said I'd do that I wasn't entirely sure myself I'd stick to. I love cycling and generally feel better and more in control on two wheels than four. I like the immediate exposure to my surroundings and the elements. Last year I knew there were activities I'd want to undertake in 2020 that'd take me to opposite sides of Dublin and public transport just won't suffice. As a result, I thought, why not get myself a motorcycle? The plan now is to actually put it to use.

New Job 

Back in April 2019 I quit my job rolling burritos and started waiting tables. The change was not something I enjoyed. I'd come from a very open and loud place to one that felt reserved. The staff demographic between the two jobs are complete opposites of each other. It took me a solid six months to begin to feel somewhat settled. I wanted to quit my first two weeks there. Things did get better and I have to enjoy the job a lot more and the people too.

Leaving my old job, I was exhausted and planned on taking a month's break before properly dedicating myself to looking for a job. However, after interviewing for this current job, I decided it was too good an opportunity to pass on. I can't say I regret that decision but I am definitely learning a lot from it and my time here.  I'm also leaving that job very soon for a travel adventure. Keep reading if you want to know what I am talking about.

Onwards Ever Onwards

Travel

 Bilbao, Spain

Still looking for two more people, a couch and some umbrellas.

Well first on the list is travel. I've booked my flights for about 4 months of travel. It'll be the longest time I've ever travelled and I am equal parts excited and terrified! I took out my first ever loan to buy all the flights as cheap as possible. I plan to have it paid off before I go so I don't have it hanging over me and also build a good credit score. 

In terms of locations, it's fairly diverse. The plan is to go from Dublin to New Zealand, up through Tasmania, Melbourne & Sydney, Jeju Island, South Korea, swing by Tokyo for the Olympics and back to Europe where I'll do a small bit of traveling. I'd love some suggestions for any of these destinations in terms of activities and cheap locations. 

Health



I want to be stronger by the end of this year. I've no purpose for the strength, just a desire I have to improve my bouldering abilities. I'll be targeting my upper body and core strength while upping my contortionist abilities with regular stretching for flexibility.

Relationships


I want to fortify my relationships with my family and friends this year. Fertilise them when time, attention and care.





I haven't set any rigid goals per se but just something to keep in the back of my mind for the year that will hopefully become lifelong benefits. 

This all sounds fine and dandy but let me just balance it out by highlighting that the  Bad Things happened too. We lost family, some friendships were lost or let go, witnessed other people's hardships and wished to be able to change it. But you take the good with the bad and sure it'll all be grand in the end. 

Saying 2020 will be great, as if there's no other time after seems a little short sighted so I'll just say, I'm looking forward to the times to come. And I hope you are too. Also maybe the times will see me posting more on here. 

Till Next Time
xxx



Sunday, 4 August 2019

Easy DIY T-Shirt Flips

Dublin, Ireland


Back in April this year I decided to treat myself to a sewing machine. I don't remember when or where I learned to sew but the act of sewing has been in my life as long as I can remember. Getting clothes tailor made was always an exciting time in my childhood. Birthdays, Easter, Christmas, weddings etc you name it, we were bound to be getting measured, going out with my grandmother to buy materials and waiting a few days to weeks for our outfits to be made. As we grew up we had more of a say in the materials and styles that would be sewn for us. More often than not sewing was a more cost effective way of getting clothing than buying them especially in the rural suburban area we lived in.


     When I moved to Ireland getting clothes tailor made meant multiple phonecalls, Western Union money transfers and waiting weeks for the post. I'd learned to hand sew from seeing it so often and regularly made little repairs to rips and tears over the years.
Back in February I made a list of some activities and hobbies I wanted to take up this year and the month of May I decided to take up sewing. With that I started scouring YouTube for channels I could follow from which I could learn to do some cool things. The first channel I connected with was With Wendy and she remains my number one crafts channel.


      A month ago Wendy tried Letitia Kiu's T-Shirt flip on her channel. This involved getting two shirts and sewing them together. You can check out Wendy's here and Leticia's here. I absolutely loved Wendy's use of a block colour with a graphic tee and really wanted to emulate it. So I tried to get that effect with this these two shirts. I owned one from a race I did back in my athletics days and the other I picked up from a charity shop called Oxfam. I watched Wendy's video and about 10 minutes later, I had two new shirts. 




 Although I am happy with this, I would've preferred it with a block red as I feel the white writing distracts from the clash of the red to the stripped blue and yellow. I'll be keeping an eye out for two block colours that I'll want to merge together again.



      Letitia went a different route and chose two graphic tees to put together. I found these Iron Man and Mario Family tees in a charity shop and knew I wanted to put them together. However, after making the first tee, I found I wasn't that much of a fan of the back of the tee shirt being split into two different colours. Instead I decided to keep one block colour for each shirt. I also initially planned to swap the sleeves on each side too but thought that looked too tacky so went against that.
Instead of simply cutting the two shirts in two, I completely dismembered each and then cut the front in two before sewing them all back up.







I was so delighted with how they turned out I wore one to work that same day! This was such a fun and easy project to do. Time consuming if you're taking the shirts completely apart to create a block back but also very worth it.





 I did a poll on Instagram of which shirt y'all preferred and it seems we all agreed the red sleeves just rock a little bit more.


Can you see yourself doing this fun project? Let me know in the comments!


Till Next Time

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Sunday, 28 July 2019

Give Me Therapy

Dublin, Ireland


Not lyrics of an All Time Low song my 15 year old self liked to sing to. Towards the end of 2016 therapy was a service I really needed. I was feeling out of touch with everything, overanalyzing and doubting everything and everyone and keeping it all to myself. It was a strange time but I was taking it by the day and making it through. I posted something on Twitter that was 28-4-2017. A fellow blogger at the time and reader replied with the suggestion of a psychotherapy and counselling service provider for me to check out. I looked them up, saw they had a branch in my area and I sent an email the same day asking for an appointment.

After that came a little over a year of weekly self discovery and healing with one of the most impactful people in my life yet. I thought I'd share this story today before I move on and share all the other fun things I have been enjoying doing. I started off at a not so bad, not so good place mentally and now I am at a much better place. Before I can go back to fully enjoying life on the blog I feel this needs to be shared first. Along with therapy and my cultural theory classes in college, I was feeling a lot of conflicting emotions that made it hard to sit down and write about travelling or baking sweet goodies without feeling like a liar. After sharing this I hope to be able to move on and share some more about the past few months and what the future holds.




       I received my initial appointment to assess what I needed on June 1st and I believe a week after that I had my first session with my first therapist. I stayed with that therapist for six weeks. When I started college that semester, my schedule changed and I requested a different time. With that came a different therapist and the beginning of a process that would teach me a lot about how I can approach life.

My first therapist and I didn't quite gel. I often felt like he wasn't really listening to what I was saying or didn't have the words to relay his understanding of what I was trying to convey. My second therapist was doing his master's in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy so he hard many nuggets of information and techniques to offer me. Each time I learned something new and put it to the test, challenging as it was sometimes, I always came out the other end with a much better view and attitude. There were many times he'd help lead me to a certain point and encourage me to go the rest of the way on my own. The prime example was during my last session when he advised me that I no longer needed his services. He'd enough confidence that I'd be able to use my new skills to navigate the world even when I didn't feel it myself.

        In my sessions I chose to look through my childhood and adolescent years and tackle the habits and attitudes I'd cultivated and accumulated knowingly and unknowingly that were now in my adult years causing unwanted and unnecessary grief. There was some crying, some laughing and some biblical-like revelations too. I learned a lot in those sessions about my character and my views on life and I also learned new ways of dealing with the things I will encounter in life. I'd love to share all of them with you but seeing as I am not a trained psychologist and everyone deals with issues differently, I will not assume the position of imparting wisdom I cannot help anyone apply correctly. The one thing I will share that has been super useful to me and is hopefully harmless to share is this.





        A lot of anxiety and self doubt for me stems from feeling threatened in some way. Whenever I start to feel like I'm being tossed about in a whirlpool, I take a minute, call on the voice of my therapist and identify the things that are making me feel threatened. Sometimes it's an intellectual threat: what if an action of mine makes someone think I am incompetent? Sometimes it's an emotional threat: I don't like the way this person is treating me and I don't know how to say it. And sometimes it's a threat of a thought or opinion I have that I am shaming myself for and fear someone else will shame me for it. Whatever it is once I can identify them I am able to interrogate the threat and ask myself how I would handle that situation.

It's my most used technique to date and is becoming ingrained in my automatic thought processes for everything. However like I said, I'm no psychotherapist and everyone is different. The issues you may have, the way you deal with them, your perception, attitude etc. are all so unique. Thus it makes sense that it'd take a unique way of learning to navigate them.
In Ireland I know therapy isn't something that is as openly talked about as say in America. However the benefits of learning to understand your own mental landscape and attitudes are immeasurable. If you feel therapy is something you can benefit from but are hesitating... don't. Just do it! (Not sponsored by Nike).


       There are many service providers out there. Find yourself a trusted provider. Don't be afraid to try out different ones till you find someone you gel with. There are also various cost points out there too. If you're in Dublin you can start here with Let's Get Talking. They are in Galway and Dublin.
The service is pay-as-you-can so I never felt too stretched out of my financial situation which at the time wasn't too great as I'd started renting that January.

I finished up my sessions on the 8th of October 2018. I told myself I'd give myself six months and if after six months I was struggling, I'd go back. Within those six months a few major changes, deaths, marriage etc. occurred that I shared in this post here. Some of those things I'm still dealing with now and others I am done with. But April came and went, then June and now July is going out and I don't feel I need to go back because I am still able to count on everything I learned.

Basically going to therapy has been like getting a tool box that is tailor made for you and your life. Milo Murphy's backpack doesn't even come close to it!


Have you used psychotherapy/counselling services? What has been your experience with it? Let me know in the comments!

P.S. You can find the All Time Low song which lends it's title to this post here.

Till Next Time

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Sunday, 14 July 2019

Scrapbooking My Year In Pictures

Dublin, Ireland

Last year I received a gorgeous Paperchase diary from my landlady for Christmas because if you know me you know I LOVE stationary! Unfortunately, a few months prior in October I purchased a Simple Elephant journal from Amazon that I was loving and didn't want to restart a new one. Who starts a new diary in October you might ask? Well the Simple Elephant journal allows you to put in your own dates and months etc. so it allows me to skip weeks and months if needed. Helpful for weeks where I am on holiday with no itinerary or weeks where don't have much going on.

Anyways, seeing as I was loving life with my new journal I didn't have a use for the new one. I decided to sit on it and come up with a plan for it because I didn't want it going to waste. Fast forward to some time in early January and I have the idea to use it as some sort of scrapbook for memories. I decided to take a picture a day on my phone and print it out on the old photo printer I had sitting around. As simple as it sounded I didn't enjoy it at all and never once printed a picture from my phone. I'm lazy, so sue me.



I decided to remove the extra steps between taking the photo and printing it and decided to buy a Polaroid. It arrived on the first day of spring and I have been taking pictures since. It's been so fun trying to take a picture a day. I've decided to think of it as 'collecting souls' because I try to take pictures when I feel most in the moment (after enjoying it as much as possible of course) so I can remember the energy of those around me at the time too. This doesn't always happen because sometimes I'm enjoying the moment far too much to step away to turn on the camera.



That brings me to another important point. Enjoying the moment. It's been a minute since I wrote and although I am always, always saddened by how long it takes me to write, I'm not exactly sorry about this reason. I've had a pretty awesome few months filled with lots of activities, events and meet ups with some awesome people I am lucky to have in my life.

I'm hoping to have this book filled with lots of awesome memories come the end of this year! As luck would have it, my Polaroid stopped working at the end of my holiday in Porto so I rang Amazon who gave me a refund, I ordered a new one and it arrived two days later in time for my friend's 21st. Taking pictures this way has led to me not using my camera as much as I'd like, be it DSLR or Phone. With that said, it also means I am not spending as much time thinking of what would look great within the frame and just enjoying myself.

How do you document your memories?



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Sunday, 14 April 2019

TUNES I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO

Dublin, Ireland


My music consumption since May of last year mostly consisted off whatever was playing at work as I spent most of my time there. It's no different in the new job. This had meant I really only listen to music in between work and college so I've been listening to a small range of artists and songs.

Below are just a few of some of those songs and artists I've been listening to.

1) Ariana Grande - 7 Rings



Not an artist I listened to before as a choice but I really enjoyed the catchiness of this song. The notion that you can see something you like and just buy it is my main attraction to it. It's fun and playful and I love it.


2) The Aces - Waiting For You



3) Young The Giant - Call Me Back



4) Jaden Smith - SOHO

Beyond his Spotify account, I don't know much about Jaden past Karate Kid and The Pursuit of Happiness. With that said, his music provides me with lengthy vibey sounds to study to and I can't complain.




5) Kanye West - Waves



Ye just doing his thing.

6) Imagine Dragons - Dancing in The Dark

You'll be dancing in the dance along to this song. It's a divisive songs for fans of the band but I personally find that it allows me to explore my perspectives of relationships with the soothing accompaniment of Dan Reynolds's voice. I know, the power of a song.




7) Riz La Vie - Napkins

This is another playful song to have a swaying bop to.



8) Still Woozy - Habit



9) Mac Miller - Self Care

One hit and I was hooked. If you need a reminder about why and how to love yourself.


10) Kendrick Lamar - Love

I have a college assignment to create a lyric music video, I had initially started on this song but changed it because it didn't allow me to fully fit the brief. Additionally, I was running the risk of over playing a song a really enjoy. It's vunerable and always makes me feel mushy woshy!



11) Sasha Sloan - Runaway



12) Glass Animals - Season 2 Episode 3

This is the song I decided to do my lyric music assignment on.



13) Wet, Branchez - 11 Hours Branchez Remix

This is just some of what I've been listening to. What's on your list?

Till Next Time
xxx

Sunday, 7 April 2019

Amsterdam Round 2

Dublin, Ireland


My trip to Amsterdam with a friend back in November was actually quite lovely. The first time I went to Amsterdam it was more as a time to spend with the people I was with and didn't really see much of the city. This time by the end of our few days, we were navigating the city like Google map pros.


Accomodation

We stayed in Clinknoord Hostel. I would 100% be looking to book it again when I go back to Amsterdam, if I am not couchsurfing. My friend and I were in a female dorm of four and paid €35 for the three nights spent there.

There are communal bathrooms but they are quite snazzy and very clean. The staff are also really lovely. There's a place to leave your things before or after check in. Additionally there are many hostel hosted events so plenty of opportunities to meet other travelers. The communal space is also very inviting with great music, games, a bar, books and an enclosed open rough area for doing some yoga or watching the stars.


If you forget things like towels and toothbrushes, they sell them too but they're a tad expensive.
Location wise, you cannot get any luckier. The hostel is located less than a five minute walk from the ferry port where a three minute ferry ride (which is not only frequent but also free ) will take you directly to Amsterdam Central. So you are essentially eight minutes from the heart of Amsterdam and thus everything you could possibly want to do.


Food, Attractions and Night Life

On this trip I really wanted to sample the Amsterdam tourist scene and my mate also wanted to sample a bit of the night scene so we did just that. On our first day in Amsterdam, we met an old friend of mine living there and got to explore the 'hipster' scene in De Pipj. It is apparently the 'It' place in Amsterdam. We enjoyed a lovely Nepalese food in Surya. I'm planning on having a meal there at least once every time I am in Amsterdam.
The most hipster place we visited in De Pipj was called Coffee and Coconut. Truly a beautiful interior, it used to be an old cinema building and now houses a rage of people eating leaves and drinking out of coconuts in freezing November. It's an Instagram picture den and has prices to match too. We went here twice for lunch and I would heartily recommend the Beef Burger.





We also visited my Aunt and Uncle after trying to get tickets to Rainbow Kitten Surprise. We failed in that mission but while walking away completely dejected, who do we run into?? The one and only Charlie Holt! I didn't take a picture with them because he was eating a waffle, in a rush and I was just fangirling too much. Definitely made my evening better.


My friend wanted to visit the Rembrandt museum. I say I'm not one for museums but I almost always enjoy every museum I visit. This one was no exception. In one of the rooms, I got to watch one of the tour guides make paint and even got to try it.





On one of the evenings we ventured out into the city to try and find a club. Unfortunately for us, it was a Sunday evening so selection was not great. We did however end up in a quaint jazz bar where we got to enjoy some live music, sing happy birthday to some random old and enjoy some rather nice pints.


Another great feature of the hostel is that it is right next to the A'dam swing. We did this on our last day as it meant we didn't have to go too far. I seem to forget my slight fear of heights when I'm planning things sometimes. I screamed all the way through this safe swing but sure look. I might've looked and sounded silly in the moment but I really enjoyed it too.




Altogether, it was a very different trip to my first Dam trip but equally as fun and enjoyable. I'm looking forward to the next trip already. Perhaps some weekend to come. I'll also make sure to take a lot more pictures. This trip was immensely video footage heavy and with exams aroud the corner, I don't go the tme to edit it all together. I'll have to put it on my summer pojects list.

Have you been to Dam recently ro planning on gogin? What's a place or activity you'd recommend? Let me know in the comments.

Till Next Time

Sunday, 31 March 2019

SPILLING THE TEA

Dublin, Ireland


Looking at my posts, my last blog post was back in November but it was really the last of a staggeringly slow line of posts. In order to be able to pick up things on the same footing, I need to bring y'all to to date on life outside the blog. There are 5 influential changes or events I think you should all know.

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1) I Quit My Job

First hugely influential thing, I quit my job. This will be the third job I've ever quit. The first I left because I needed to study for my leaving certificate but I also did not enjoy the job or working with the passive-aggressive, oppressive management. The second I left after two weeks as it was my fourth job at the time and I was just spreading myself too thin. And now I have two shifts left in my current job.

Aside from the first job I left, I've enjoyed every single job I've ever had. For me I evaluate how fit a job and I are for each other based on three factors: 1) the company's treatment of employees 2) my fellow employees 3) work to life balance. If I'm in a job where the company isn't extortionate, my colleagues are fun and supportive and I can still achieve things outside of work, I'm a happy bunny. It hit me during a lecture in college on modern society and attitudes towards work that I realized how unhappy and drained I had become in my current job.

Aside from that, I couldn't really see myself moving up in the company with college and the required times so I figured it would be best to find a job I'd never done before to learn some new skills. But first, I wanted to take two months off to relax and focus on college. I'd take some promotional jobs to get pocket money and dip into my savings for rent.

At the request of my mother I promised to send out some CVs to places I would genuinely like to work. I had the safety net of an old job I knew would rehire me after my haitus so I wasn't worried. I sent out three CVs after making this decision and fast forward to now, I've a job lined up somewhere much closer to home and one in which I will get to learn some new skills.


2) Bereavements



The one year anniversary of my grandmother came up in March as did my paternal Grandfather's funeral. Being so far from Ghana thinking about my Great-Grandmother and grandfather was quite hard. I wasn't expecting to get as torn up about it as I was.

I was planning on making a short documentary video on my Great-Grandmother to mark her anniversary. It was an idea I planned for when I went to Ghana for her funeral but looking at the footage and pictures of the day, I couldn't bring myself to do anything with them except sit and cry. Then there was my paternal Grandfather's funeral which I was unable to attend because of financial restraints.



Altogether, paired with work stress, feelings of inadequacy/imposter syndrome in college and I was very emotionally drained.


3) Break Ups

Also before the end of the 2018, M and I broke up. It was amicable but after nearly three years, it's a huge hit to the system and routine. It's been a few months and it still feels fairly raw. Such an odd thing too because I have been doing so much more with my time so I feel like I'm accomplishing a lot of things too. Looking back through the lense of hindsight, the first few weeks where I felt everything was okay was actually quite opposite. Mentally I think I was just very scrambled.

I couldn't throw myself into work because I didn't really want to be there. I couldn't throw myself into college either because I couldn't focus. I joined a choir, started going back to the gym more, practiced yoga and for the first few weeks, tried to not be alone for too long.



I'm very grateful for all the people who unknowingly helped me through this time. I don't talk about my emotions when I'm experiencing them often, opting to share once the worse is over. However I'm glad I shared it with some, it was such a relief.


4) Malta, Amsterdam, Australia

If you read my post about my Amsterdam itinerary then you know I went to Amsterdam last October. You'll also know I never updated on how that trip actually went. Well I just wanted to let you know, I will update it soon because I'm planning on going some weekend to come.

For the New Year of 2019 there had been talks of going skiing but that didn't happen. Instead I went to Malta with two crazy gals and had a blast of a time. You might've seen this on my Instagram stories at the time. It was truly a breath of fresh air after the M situation and unbeknownst to me at the time, the perfect calm before the storm of stress and psychological drain that would follow. This trip too will get it's own post to come because I just loved the time we spent there that much!



Then the big trip of the year for me, Australia. I've recently purchased my ticket to Australia because my cousin is getting married. I'm so excited for this because I'll get to see family members I haven't been with in over 16 years and some I've never even met! Last year when I went for my Great-Grandmother's funeral, I got to meet one of my aunts and an uncle whom I hadn't seen since I was four years old. It was such a fantastic and wholesome experience. I'm very nervous for the trip in Australia because I don't want to have high expectations of how things will be but regardless I am super excited.

Additionally, my birthday is two days before the wedding so I'll get to celebrate it with my family and my grandmother who's being surprised with a trip there from Ghana.

5) Everything Else

In the much nearer present, I'm loving college. Looking at finishing up work and taking up a new job has me nervous and excited. Having the extra time means I am doing more and discovering more about myself but I am buzzing for summer when I get to see more of my crazy awesome friends cause college won't be in the way. 



Life right now isn't perfect, but it's pretty darn close and I couldn't be more grateful.
Hopefully I haven't jinxed that now!
What have you been up to all this time? Share with me some with me in the comments so I can give you some love!

Till Next Time

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